Pinch Me Awake

I need a pinch to bring me back to reality!
Am I really here at this AMAZING pinnacle?
I can't seem to believe that I have been brought
Back to the land of the blessed - I never really
Left, nor was I exiled - I just kept ducking into
Caves to hide from the heavy responsibility that
Comes with favor - It's frightening sometimes and you
Don't want to hurt other peoples' feelings or
Make anyone feel bad about themselves - but
This is speculative co-dependancy rearing
Its ugly head stopping you from doing you and
Breathing and soaring high on the high of
Moving in the right direction - the direction of
Your dreams that seemed more like nightmares
From their inaccessibility - but the stretching to
Reach out and grasp them was good for your spine -
It strengthened and put steel in it - to persevere and
Push pass what others' think or opinionate on
You - being busy bodies only in your mind since
You can't hear what is being said in someone
Elses' mind - they aren't even thinking as much
About you as you are about them - fearing that
Your gratitude and joy is a burden and a blight
That will be a constant reminder of what
Someone else doesn't have but wants - like
This hasn't happened to you for so long - and
Now you are getting what you've strived for,
Were created for and have denied for so long
Because you wanted to be normal and "just an
Accountant" - balancing the books and scales of
Justice financially for everyone else but yourself
When it came to your dreams - there is a price
Attached, of course there is - but it's priceless...
So are the dividends of dreaming and seeing it
Through to realization... thanks be to God!!!