What do I do?
I don't have any ideas...
I wanna keep this
Flow going, but
Gotta go and flow
Somewheres else!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
November 28th, 2011
2nd nephew's birthday
3 years and a day after his
Big brother -
BOY do I miss them!
3 years and a day after his
Big brother -
BOY do I miss them!
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
November 26th, 2011
16 years later and
Still hanging on
By a thread perhaps
But hanging on
Just the same...
God what am I
To do?
Friday, November 25, 2011
November 25th, 2011
Black Friday!
Black from the rigormortis of
Death that has set in from
Ingesting too much!
Black from the rigormortis of
Death that has set in from
Ingesting too much!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
November 22nd, 2011
AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!
2 more days till being
Stuffed like the turkey
We are going to tear up!
2 more days till being
Stuffed like the turkey
We are going to tear up!
Monday, November 21, 2011
November 21st, 2011
Time is marching on so quickly!
I am panicking feeling unable to
Keep up or keep pace!
I am panicking feeling unable to
Keep up or keep pace!
Sunday, November 20, 2011
November 20th, 2011
4 more days until the gorging of
The stuffed turkey who didn't get
To gorge on anything itself.
The stuffed turkey who didn't get
To gorge on anything itself.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
November 18th, 2011
6 days away from spending time
Thankfully with those who
Will be thankful I am in their lives...
I am thankful to be able to serve them
God willingly... so they, too, will be
Thankful to be served.
Thankfully with those who
Will be thankful I am in their lives...
I am thankful to be able to serve them
God willingly... so they, too, will be
Thankful to be served.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
November 17th, 2011
Why hello other favorite number...
The memory of that number age
Is crushing me... if only... always
Awful words to utter... I could
Turn back the hands that shaped
My mind - my own, now calloused,
Cracked, rough - I would and forge
Through a different path... my
Negativity only believes the worst
Would result and the end result
Would be where I am now...
Struggling with sadness at the
Mess I made of my life with
My own hands - hands that are so
Gentle and kind to many of God's
Creatures and creations except the
Ones they are attached to...
The memory of that number age
Is crushing me... if only... always
Awful words to utter... I could
Turn back the hands that shaped
My mind - my own, now calloused,
Cracked, rough - I would and forge
Through a different path... my
Negativity only believes the worst
Would result and the end result
Would be where I am now...
Struggling with sadness at the
Mess I made of my life with
My own hands - hands that are so
Gentle and kind to many of God's
Creatures and creations except the
Ones they are attached to...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Why Is It?
Why is it that even at my age
I still feel every bit as insecure and
Uncool as I did when I was 12?
I have, or so I thought, amazing ideas
But they dissipate like the precipitation
On my top lip as I break a sweat trying to
Formulate some clever retort to my
Increasing insecurity regarding
Every area of my life... This happens,
It seems, after great successes have occurred
In my life - it's almost like my life does
Not know how to process something
Positive happening - so it tries to find ways to
Sabotage all the other incredible things
That are trying to wriggle their way in to
The corners of my mouth in order to
Create a smile which burns a hole like a laser
Through the ugliness that is trying to suffocate
Any happiness out of me.
I still feel every bit as insecure and
Uncool as I did when I was 12?
I have, or so I thought, amazing ideas
But they dissipate like the precipitation
On my top lip as I break a sweat trying to
Formulate some clever retort to my
Increasing insecurity regarding
Every area of my life... This happens,
It seems, after great successes have occurred
In my life - it's almost like my life does
Not know how to process something
Positive happening - so it tries to find ways to
Sabotage all the other incredible things
That are trying to wriggle their way in to
The corners of my mouth in order to
Create a smile which burns a hole like a laser
Through the ugliness that is trying to suffocate
Any happiness out of me.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
November 10th, 2011
Another birthday... I could be WRONG
About the other date... that's a good thing though!
About the other date... that's a good thing though!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
Indelible
So many birthdays that crushed me
His namesake day too... it's on the
Calendar of my heart and mind and
A body of memories long since gone
In a trash heap behind the clinic
Down the street from my house
Where I could have runaway from and
To not to have had these memories
Filed on the hard drive of my mind,
Body and soul feeling condemned
Because of the choices that this date
Represents in Mexico and my life...
What seems like forever and incapable of
Being expunged from my being having
Been tattooed across all the surfaces of
My body - constant reminders in and
On my face when I look in the mirror and
On the inside of my eyelids when I
Close my eyes - Indelible -
These marks that love made.
His namesake day too... it's on the
Calendar of my heart and mind and
A body of memories long since gone
In a trash heap behind the clinic
Down the street from my house
Where I could have runaway from and
To not to have had these memories
Filed on the hard drive of my mind,
Body and soul feeling condemned
Because of the choices that this date
Represents in Mexico and my life...
What seems like forever and incapable of
Being expunged from my being having
Been tattooed across all the surfaces of
My body - constant reminders in and
On my face when I look in the mirror and
On the inside of my eyelids when I
Close my eyes - Indelible -
These marks that love made.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
November 5th, 2011
And another one bites the dust...
And another down and another
One, two, three, four
Fifth one for this month
And another down and another
One, two, three, four
Fifth one for this month
Friday, November 4, 2011
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Puppy Love
He's kind of adorable and
Really gross in his ways
Licking himself all day
But ridiculously cute on
His back - feet curled like
A gay man's wrists - all
Four feet - looking like a
Fox - those puppy dog
Eyes make me late for work
Everyday since we've had him!
He's good with all sizes and
Cries to be with someone too -
Me, you, anyone will do!
Only makes a fuss when he's
Excited or taking down his
Favorite blue-plaid slipper or
The inners of toilet paper roll -
He's useless for defending us
Cuz he's too cute for his own good...
If we were to be robbed, I think the
Burglars would stop and abscond
Away with him - this pee and poop
Machine, who cuddles, whines, and
Demands food, walks, treats and
Attention at all hours of the day has
Stolen everyones' hearts that comes
In contact with him - God knew that
Most folks would be powerless in his
Presence... we are whipped by the
Puppy of loveableness! GROSS!
Really gross in his ways
Licking himself all day
But ridiculously cute on
His back - feet curled like
A gay man's wrists - all
Four feet - looking like a
Fox - those puppy dog
Eyes make me late for work
Everyday since we've had him!
He's good with all sizes and
Cries to be with someone too -
Me, you, anyone will do!
Only makes a fuss when he's
Excited or taking down his
Favorite blue-plaid slipper or
The inners of toilet paper roll -
He's useless for defending us
Cuz he's too cute for his own good...
If we were to be robbed, I think the
Burglars would stop and abscond
Away with him - this pee and poop
Machine, who cuddles, whines, and
Demands food, walks, treats and
Attention at all hours of the day has
Stolen everyones' hearts that comes
In contact with him - God knew that
Most folks would be powerless in his
Presence... we are whipped by the
Puppy of loveableness! GROSS!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Posey's Day
This was his day -
I loved him so
So I showed him in
Not so many clothes
Under the influence of
A wriggly worm at the
Bottom of a bottle
I swigged off in a
Pint glass being a
Pint-sized lover to his
Massive height
Straight to the head and
His bed to his car
Where the scars took
Me home without
Words - embarrassed
Embarrassing that I waited
So long to love him to
Not be loved but used like the
Cap screwed onto the bottle
I wish I could have drowned in
Oh so long ago naively.
I loved him so
So I showed him in
Not so many clothes
Under the influence of
A wriggly worm at the
Bottom of a bottle
I swigged off in a
Pint glass being a
Pint-sized lover to his
Massive height
Straight to the head and
His bed to his car
Where the scars took
Me home without
Words - embarrassed
Embarrassing that I waited
So long to love him to
Not be loved but used like the
Cap screwed onto the bottle
I wish I could have drowned in
Oh so long ago naively.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
November 1st, 2011
The first day of a new month.
Why do you careen so out of control
End of the year?
I fear I will be stuck here in my
Mind as it Martha's its way around
Town noticing what needs to be
Done and doing it without thinking of
What's best... sitting at the feet of
Jesus drinking in His splendor with
Splenda and cream - not too hot,
Not too cold, just right minus
The worry.
Why do you careen so out of control
End of the year?
I fear I will be stuck here in my
Mind as it Martha's its way around
Town noticing what needs to be
Done and doing it without thinking of
What's best... sitting at the feet of
Jesus drinking in His splendor with
Splenda and cream - not too hot,
Not too cold, just right minus
The worry.
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