Indelible

So many birthdays that crushed me
His namesake day too... it's on the
Calendar of my heart and mind and
A body of memories long since gone
In a trash heap behind the clinic
Down the street from my house
Where I could have runaway from and
To not to have had these memories
Filed on the hard drive of my mind,
Body and soul feeling condemned
Because of the choices that this date
Represents in Mexico and my life...
What seems like forever and incapable of
Being expunged from my being having
Been tattooed across all the surfaces of
My body - constant reminders in and
On my face when I look in the mirror and
On the inside of my eyelids when I
Close my eyes - Indelible -
These marks that love made.