4 Months

4 months flew by because
1 month was spent away
2 months were spent apart and
1 month showed us our wrongs.

I don't want to be wrong
Again
He doesn't think we do wrong
But
I don't know maybe I have
Staunched the flow of blood by
Cauterizing my senses...
My conscience or have turned the
Speaker off in order not to hear
God's kindness whispered in
Trusting Him and have no fear
Stop lacking faith - that's what
My fear shows and then pushes
Away in order to not end up
Where I've always ended up
Alone fighting to get what I want
Only to discard it again...

I don't have the luxury of playing
Any games any more especially when
The game pieces involve another's
Heart I love... I have come to love
Even in my fear that it won't last.

I'm gonna push past this 4 months to
Welcome the next 4... to discover
More love that will grow as we
Cultivate it together.