Not KnowIng

I really don't know how to do this:
How many times do I need to
Express this insecurity - I need to
Cling to God and believe NOT
Distrust this lust that connives me
Into thinking it's love - it's NOT, it's
Just that - For Unlawful Carnal -
KnowIng this is all I have known and
Now see encourages him to know
I, too, struggle with his same difficulties of
The flesh - which wrinkles, fades and
Decays from outside to in sometimes
In a day, sometimes in a lifetime, even
When the lifetime is just a day!
What can I say? I am grateful to have
This challenge than to not have it at all...
I don't really know how to do this, but
I am trying - I am doing the best I can and
So is he!